my pity party

Being a working mom is much more difficult than I anticipated. More emotionally than anything. My mom strongly encouraged me to go back to work because she gave up her career for her kids and said when we left than she had nothing. She told me the first year would be hard, but it would get easier. I totally disagree with that. It gets harder every day as Blake gets more fun I want to be with him all the time, so I am currently doing some major soul searching to see what I want to do. I have currently been at my job for 10 years and I'm here to tell you - a career is really overrated!!! I like to have money to do whatever we want - but I save most of it anyway, and I know Blake loves his daycare and the structure that it gives him, I think we actually would miss his daycare the most.

so currently here is my typical day:

wake up at 5:30 a.m. get ready for work so we can be out the door by 7am and usually it's a struggle with Blake because he wants to do EVERYTHING himself, which I want to encourage, but it takes him forever, hence me being late a lot, hence me getting in trouble at work . . .
work all day - miss Blake . . .
get home 5:15, by the time I get done with dinner it's 6, time for some play, bath time and then bed time (I'm so freakin exhausted by this time I CRASH)
What kind of life is this?

I know lots of people do this with more than one child - HOW????

so that is my pity party - thanks for listening my next post will be more exciting.